When I'm Not Superman

" There was a time when the world asked ordinary men to do extraordinary things"

I often pondered upon that line, and tried to understand the depth of it's meaning. What did it mean? That's when I heard the song Superman by Five For Fighting, and that line suddenly made perfect sense.

We are humans, and at times, circumstances occur in such a way that we are asked to do things beyond our usual capabilities. Things that require more strength in aptitude, more deeper understanding, and a more steadier concentration. When are those times you might ponder? Anytime could be that time.

I am often subjected to this. I often feel that I have been too much subjected to this. Sometimes, I prove myself. But when I do, I am giving the perception that I can actually do these things as my usual capabilities, thus, I am then asked to do more. I am constantly being pushed and tested to the limit. Then, what happens when one day, I fail? Have I failed myself then, or others? It is often the latter. I feel that I have failed everyone else, I let them down. I do not live up to their expectations and hopes. Recognition doesn't usually come when I succeed, but when I fail, I look around and see no one behind nor beside me. But in front of me. 

But what am I able to do? Yes, I did fail them. But then again, am I letting everyone else dictate how I should live my life, or should I live my own life? That is the question I seek to know it's answer.

So people, your hopes drive me to higher standards, and pushes me to the limits. I learn more about myself each time I do so, and I hope that one day, I can truly realise my potential. 

But if I fail, please forgive me. I am only human. I am only Ash. No more, no less.